ETHAN ALVAREZ
Phoenix
Posts: 211
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Antonio Alvarez
Played by:
Noe
he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
Last seen May 6, 2024 22:05:18 GMT
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 4, 2020 20:19:19 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ Ethan had gotten so close to losing Antonio and it was so fucking scary. He wasn't sure how to process any of it yet even after leaving Antonio to heal with no distractions. Sleeping would be good for him right now, unlike before where it was considered dangerous. But now, he needed Antonio to sleep so his body could heal with no interruptions. He contacted work and asked for a day off along with Antonio so he could take care of him. Their captain advised taking him to a hospital but he knew how stubborn Antonio can be when he wants to be. So, he didn't take him to a hospital but the urge was definitely still strong, there's no debate there.
In the meantime, Ethan tried to find a way to distract himself from his thoughts before they could consume him whole. He organized his room for a bit, making his bed for the umpteenth time that day because he kept on insisting it didn't look good. But maybe he was just running out of ways to keep himself busy. Was that what it was like for Antonio back then? Sure, it was different in the manner of him having died not long after in Antonio's arms.
But with what had happened to Antonio he wasn't sure whether the other was alive or not. He had pushed him and that kid out of harm's way and he had to watch in horror as the cave collapsed on him. No matter how hard he called out to him, there was no answer. No matter how hard to try to push the rubble away, it simply wasn't going to do anything at all.
It had been a day after the whole ordeal and it felt like the time was moving too slow. It all felt like it was too slow for his liking. He just wanted Antonio back up on his feet again. He wanted to see him doing well. It hurt to see him like that. Ethan glanced over at the time and saw that it was five PM and that was when he pushed up from his bed and decided to head on downstairs so he could make something for all of them to eat. Well, he attempted to. But it didn't go too well for Ethan who ended up burning the food like the idiot that he was. He ended up ordering food and once that had arrived, he took up three slices on a plate along with a bottle of beer and headed up to Antonio's room. "Hey, man. Are you up? Bet you haven't eaten anything yet, so uh, I got you a little something?" He called out from behind the door, waiting to see if Antonio was up or not.
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
Dragon
Posts: 226
Age:
124
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Ethan Alvarez
Played by:
Emma
For so long I was blind but now I see
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 4, 2020 23:19:58 GMT
Antonio had known that the job was risky when he had decided to become a firefighter but he had never come as close to not returning home as he had two days ago. He could have easily stayed stuck in that cave until Ethan and the others managed to dig him out but by then he knew that it would have been too late. The caves were a maze and no one seemed to know just how they connected to each other so he had been lucky to find his way out of there and he knew better than to take that for granted. He had promised himself after Samara left the girls on his doorstep that he would always be there for them and he had almost broken that promise. It wasn’t something that he’d had any control over but he knew that he couldn’t afford to let something like that happen again. He knew that he didn’t want to give up being a firefighter because it had taken him over a hundred years to find what he was meant to do with his life but he knew that he was going to have to be that much more careful from now on and make sure that the girls didn’t end up losing him the same way they had done their mom. The day before Ethan and the girls had kept a close eye on him in case he had a concussion but that day he had finally been able to sleep and he had ended up getting some well needed rest. He felt awful for scaring the three of them like he had done and he knew that he was going to have to find a way to make it up to them but right now he needed to give his body time to heal. He already felt a lot better than he had done the day before and he knew that in another day or two he would be back to normal. He had pushed his body to its limit and then some so it was taking him longer to heal than it normally would but that was to be expected. Even so staying in bed all day wasn’t something that he ever did but he knew the girls would kill him if he started moving about too early so he knew that he had to stay put for a while even if it was only to make sure that they didn’t end up worrying about him more than they already were. Strictly speaking he hadn’t actually stayed in bed all day, he had showered and changed but he had stayed in his room and had avoided moving around too much. Antonio really was feeling hungry by the time that Ethan spoke and he felt a smile form on his face as he crossed the room and opened the door. “It’s like you read my mind, I’m starving. Thanks,” he admitted, taking the plate and bottle from Ethan before turning and heading back into the room. “I bet you are too, why don’t you join me?” he asked, getting himself comfortable before taking a sip of his beer and starting to tuck into the pizza. There was so much that he needed to say to Ethan but for the moment he knew that he needed to eat something and get his energy back. ETHAN ALVAREZ
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ETHAN ALVAREZ
Phoenix
Posts: 211
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Antonio Alvarez
Played by:
Noe
he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
Last seen May 6, 2024 22:05:18 GMT
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 5, 2020 7:31:46 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ Ethan felt a small smile appear on his lips when Antonio opened the door, revealing himself. He handed him the plate as well as the bottle of beer, his hands moving to settle inside his pockets moments later, his blue eyes still focused on his best friend, happy to see him up on his feet. He looked terrible two days ago. The memory was still so fresh as well as the fear of losing him for good. "Oh did I not mention it before? Phoenixes can definitely read minds. I can hear you complaining about how hungry you are from all the way downstairs. Next time, tune it down a bit." Ethan said with a chuckle following as he messed around a bit, wanting to keep the mood light. They've probably had enough with tears and worrying those past two days.
Ethan was reminded of how hungry he was when he saw Antonio digging in and his best friend's next words made his brows shoot up. "Wait--- can you hear my thoughts?" He asked, blinking a few times before his lips stretched to form a gentle smile. "Okay, I'll be back in a few." And with that, Ethan turned around so he could head downstairs to get himself a plate and a bottle of beer to fight the greasiness of the food with.
With the plate in one hand and the beer in the other, he headed back upstairs until he reached Antonio's room and that was when he stepped inside and sat down next to him, the plate propped on his thigh. "This is really good." He said after taking a bite from the pizza. 'Definitely way better than... whatever it was I was trying to cook." Ethan cringed when he recalled how his food looked before he shook his head. "Cooking is way too hard, man." And with that, Ethan concluded his whining and complaining, his lips stretching to form a small smile shortly after.
"So, how's the healing coming along? Are you doing okay?"
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
Dragon
Posts: 226
Age:
124
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Ethan Alvarez
Played by:
Emma
For so long I was blind but now I see
Last seen May 7, 2024 0:40:00 GMT
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 5, 2020 21:58:34 GMT
Lazy days not doing anything weren’t something that Antonio was used to. Ever since the girls came into his life he had always had something to do and if he was honest he hadn’t really known what to do with so much time to himself. His body had needed time to heal so he had taken advantage of the time alone and had finally gotten some rest. He knew that it was something that he had needed but he couldn’t deny that he wanted nothing more than for things to get back to normal. He still felt bad about what had happened, he had never wanted to cause his family that kind of pain and he knew that sooner or later he was going to have to find a way to make it up to them but for now at least he needed to focus on feeling better so he had taken the day to do just that. Ethan had stayed home as well and if Antonio was honest he wasn’t sure what they would have done without him over the last couple of days. “Sure they can,” Antonio chuckled. Ethan was the only phoenix that he had come across but even he knew that that wasn’t one of his friend’s abilities. As Ethan asked if he could hear his thoughts, Antonio felt a smile form on his face. “Didn’t I tell you that was one of my abilities?” he teased before nodding as Ethan said that he would be back in a few. They hadn’t really had the chance to talk alone since he got home and there were so many things that still remained unsaid between the two of them. He hadn’t wanted to admit that Ela was right when she had said that there was more than a brotherly bond between the two of them, he had done his best to convince himself that she was wrong but one thing he had realised was that he didn’t want to waste any more time than they already had. He knew that there was a chance that Ethan didn’t feel the same way that he did but Antonio knew that he would regret it if he didn’t find out. “It is,” he agreed as Ethan said that the pizza was good. “You burned it again, huh?” he teased, pretty sure he knew what the answer to that question was. “I wouldn’t go that far, I like cooking,” he admitted. It was something that he had learned how to do after the girls were born and even though he wasn’t very good at it at first he had learned how to cook and he liked making meals for all of them when he had the chance. Taking a bite of his pizza, Antonio nodded as Ethan asked if he was doing ok. “I’m getting there. Another couple of days and I’ll be back to normal,” he assured him. “I’m so sorry for everything I put you and the girls through. I never wanted that.”ETHAN ALVAREZ
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ETHAN ALVAREZ
Phoenix
Posts: 211
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Antonio Alvarez
Played by:
Noe
he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
Last seen May 6, 2024 22:05:18 GMT
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 5, 2020 23:49:32 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ Sure they can, Didn’t I tell you that was one of my abilities?
Ethan shrugged his shoulders in a manner that was all too confident as a small smile appeared on his lips. Though his eyes widened slightly at Antonio's words. "Oh screw that, you aren't getting in my head." He said with a chuckle following as he held his index finger up in a warning manner but he was just teasing him and joking around.
It is, You burned it again, huh? I wouldn’t go that far, I like cooking,
Ethan cleared his throat and shifted a little on the bed when he heard Antonio's question. He avoided his eyes for a moment before he gnawed on his bottom lip. "Maaaybe?" His expression remained as innocent as ever. "You like cooking? Wow. I guess that's where Ela got it from. She made me Shepard's Pie and I haven't recovered from it yet. I dream about that monstrosity. It was so good." Ethan said with a chuckle falling from his lips before he took a sip from his beer.
I’m getting there. Another couple of days and I’ll be back to normal. I’m so sorry for everything I put you and the girls through. I never wanted that.
Ethan nodded his head slowly as he listened to what Antonio was saying, a part of him more than relieved to hear that Antonio was slowly but surely getting there. "I'm glad to hear that, Toni." He said with a soft smile resting on his lips. Though it fell slightly when he heard Antonio's words. He shook his head. "It's not your fault, Toni. You saved me and that kid. Thanks to you, he got to go home in one piece." Ethan assured, his hand reaching out to settle on Toni's thigh after putting away his bottle of beer. "What matters is that you are here now." Ethan patted his thigh once then twice before he took his hand away. "Now you just need to focus on getting better. Only then will we stop flocking around you like birds." Ethan said with a chuckle following.
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
Dragon
Posts: 226
Age:
124
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Ethan Alvarez
Played by:
Emma
For so long I was blind but now I see
Last seen May 7, 2024 0:40:00 GMT
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 6, 2020 17:40:16 GMT
"I think I already am," Antonio chuckled. He was if what Ela said was right anyway. He hadn't wanted to believe it at first, his parents had raised him to believe that one day he would fall in love with a woman and start a family. They were old fashioned and even though Antonio knew that these days it was ok not to follow the trend and that love was still love regardless of who it was with it had still taken him a while to get the picture that his parents had always drilled into him out of his head. He had already started doing things in the wrong order, he had ended up having the girls with a woman that he didn't love but that at least was one of the best things that had ever happened to him. He had hoped that everything else would start falling into place and right now at least things seemed to be doing just that. The truth was that it wasn't just a case of him getting inside Ethan's head, Ethan had been on his mind ever since the war and he knew that it was time that he finally did something about that. Antonio wasn't surprised at all when Ethan said that he had burned the food. He had never been very good at cooking and it looked like that hadn't changed. "She always enjoyed helping me cook when she was younger, she really is good at it," he nodded, a fond smile forming on his face. He had learned to cook so that he could make sure the girls had more than just microwave meals to eat while they were growing up and Ela liked to look after them when she could as well so he knew that the two of them were alike in that respect. "Maybe I'll ask her to make it again if you like it that much." It seemed to have made the same impression on Ethan that his chilli had made on Sean when he had made it at the firehouse so he knew that it wouldn't hurt. Feeling his smile return, Antonio nodded. It had felt like an uphill climb at first but now he felt like he was getting back to normal and he couldn't be happier about that. "Have you heard from him, is he doing ok?" he asked, unable to deny that he was worried about the kid. Antonio's gaze had been fixed on Ethan but as he felt the guy's hand settle on his thigh, Antonio's eyes drifted down and his expression turned thoughtful for a moment. His gaze lingered there even when Ethan moved his hand away and Antonio finally lifted his gaze to look at the other man. "What if I don't want you to stop?"ETHAN ALVAREZ
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ETHAN ALVAREZ
Phoenix
Posts: 211
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Antonio Alvarez
Played by:
Noe
he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
Last seen May 6, 2024 22:05:18 GMT
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 6, 2020 23:28:51 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ I think I already am,
Ethan's blue eyes snapped to settle on Antonio, having not expected him to say something like that. But it was definitely the truth. Antonio occupied his thoughts twenty-four-seven. The only time he got away with not thinking about him was when he was working but even then, they'd be together. So if he ever thought about him, he'd just look over at him and watch him for a bit. In a way that wasn't creepy, of course. He wasn't like that but he was pretty much gone for his best friend and it was slowly but surely clicking for him. They both come from a time where intimate relationships between same genders were heavily frowned upon. It wasn't normal and his father never passed an opportunity to tell him that, thinking that if he said it enough times, the thought would never cross his son's mind. "You have no idea," Ethan breathed out, his lips stretching to form a half-smile before he turned and walked away to go and get his food and drink.
She always enjoyed helping me cook when she was younger, she really is good at it, Maybe I'll ask her to make it again if you like it that much. Have you heard from him, is he doing ok?
Ethan felt a fond smile appear on his lips as he listened to Antonio, the image of a much younger Ela helping her dad cook making him chuckle in a fond manner. "That's honestly so cute." Ethan said with a soft smile resting on his lips. His expression lit up at Antonio's words. "I'd forever be grateful." He pressed his palms together in a silent plea before he lowered his hands down. "Oh, he's doing good. Really good, actually. Went to school this morning like nothing happened." Ethan said with a gentle smile on his lips, grateful that the kid was doing well and even strong enough to go to school.
What if I don't want you to stop?
Ethan paused at Antonio's words, his blue eyes drifting to settle on him for a few quiet moments. 'Then I won't." Ethan's voice was a little quieter as he said that, his eyes still on the other. "I'll stay around you and worry 'bout you for an eternity until you grow tired of me." Ethan said with a soft smile resting on his lips, his eyes still focused solely on Antonio.
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
Dragon
Posts: 226
Age:
124
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Ethan Alvarez
Played by:
Emma
For so long I was blind but now I see
Last seen May 7, 2024 0:40:00 GMT
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 7, 2020 0:52:07 GMT
Antonio hadn’t entirely meant to voice his thoughts just then but he couldn’t deny that it was something that had been playing on his mind ever since Ela had told him how often Ethan brought him up when he wasn’t around. Falling for another guy wasn’t something that Antonio had ever thought would happen, it had been drilled into him for as long as he could remember that the only relationship he could end up in was one with a woman. He knew that it was a very different time now and people were much more open minded but that didn’t change the fact that he was born over a hundred years ago and back then same sex relationships weren’t accepted the way they were now. It he was honest he hadn’t even had his head turned by any other guy, it was only ever Ethan that was able to have this kind of an effect on him and he had grown so used to it during the time they had spent together that it had become second nature. It was only when Ela told him that she thought they were together that he had started to realise that perhaps that was what had been there between them all along. Antonio had always thought that he had never been in love but now he was starting to wonder if perhaps he had been the whole time, he just hadn’t realised it. “You might be surprised,” Antonio said, knowing that if he had been on Ethan’s mind half as much as the guy had been on his then he might have a pretty good idea. He thought about the girls a lot too which he knew was only natural given that he was their dad but Ethan was on his mind more often than not as well. Working together meant that they got to see each other there as well and that had always been a good thing as far as Antonio was concerned. Watching Ethan disappear to go and get his food, Antonio lifted the bottle of beer to his lips and took a swig. Being alone with Ethan was making him realise that perhaps it was time to come clean to him about everything because the truth was that even if he ended up getting his heart broken, the reward was sure to be worth the risk if it worked out. It wasn’t long before Ethan returned and the sound of Ethan’s laugh as he told him about Ela helping him cook when she was younger was enough to bring a smile to Antonio’s face. There hadn’t been much laughter in the house over the last few days if any at all as Ethan and the girls had been too worried about him so it was nice to hear it again. “It was. I’ll have to dig out the photos and show you sometime, she even made me get her an apron with her name on it and a chef’s hat,” he chuckled. Those were some of his fondest memories and he had a feeling that Ethan would like them too. Antonio would be lying if he said that the girls didn’t have him wrapped around their little fingers, he had always tried to make sure that they didn’t want for anything while they were growing up but that wasn’t something that he regretted. “I’ll see what I can do,” he grinned before his expression softened as Ethan said that the boy they’d saved went to school that morning. “He’s a brave kid,” he admitted. To be able to go through something like that and then go back to school a couple of days later, he had to be. As Ethan spoke again, a half smile formed on Antonio’s face. “That hasn’t happened yet so I doubt it ever will.”ETHAN ALVAREZ
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ETHAN ALVAREZ
Phoenix
Posts: 211
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Antonio Alvarez
Played by:
Noe
he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
Last seen May 6, 2024 22:05:18 GMT
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 7, 2020 1:20:47 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ You might be surprised,
Antonio's words repeated in his head as he walked away from the room to go and get his food and beer. There it was, that voice in the back of his head telling him to just spit it out already. To tell Antonio how he felt for him because almost losing Antonio made him realize just how special Antonio was for him. It also made him realize that his feelings for the other weren't exactly platonic. Maybe it started as such but somewhere along those lines, his feelings for him started to get tangled together until it blurred all the lines. Ethan knew they were both from a time where the people weren't so kind on those who want to be in a relationship with someone of the same sex. He knew that everything was different now but it was difficult to forget how they were raised and all those warnings that were drilled in their heads ever since they were young... But he knew now better than ever that he had feelings for Antonio and he was just not sure if he had the courage to say something about it, too. Life was precious and it could easily slip from their fingertips and he needed to get it all of his chest before it's too late. He'll just have to deal with the consequences of it all later on if Antonio ended up rejecting him in a gentle manner. "You can do this, Ethan. Just... say it already." He hoped that was enough of a pep talk for him and turned around so he could head back to Antonio's room.
It was. I’ll have to dig out the photos and show you sometime, she even made me get her an apron with her name on it and a chef’s hat, I’ll see what I can do, He’s a brave kid,
Ethan chuckled at the image that popped up in his head of little Ela in an apron and a chef's hat. "Oh my god, that's literally the cutest thing ever." He wished he'd been there to see it for himself but he knew he'll just wind up having to settle for seeing the pictures. It'll make him feel like he was there in a way or the other. He grinned when Antonio told him that he'll see what he can do about the Shepard's pie. "Under one condition though, we all eat together 'cause I kinda ate it alone last time." He wanted to sit with Antonio and the girls and eat with them. He'd always been a family man and liked spending time with loved ones rather than spending time alone. Ethan nodded his head in agreement, his lips stretching to form a gentle smile. "Yeah, he is. Kids are way stronger than we give 'em credit for."
That hasn’t happened yet so I doubt it ever will.
Ethan's lips stretched to form a gentle smile, Antonio's words making his heart beat a little faster than usual. He cleared his throat and looked away for a moment as he lifted his bottle to his lips, taking a few sips to cool down his face which was starting to heat up a little bit. Come on, idiot. Say something. Just spit it out. That voice in his head started nagging him again and again, only getting louder from there as he refused to talk. "Just stop talking..." Ethan grumbled before he realized that he'd said that out loud. "Not you! I didn't mean you.." He was quick to reassure as he cleared his throat. "Hey, uh, there's something I need to tell you... I thought I'd have more, uh, time to y'know, put it all together in my head but then I almost lost you and it... made me realize that we might be supernatural beings but we're not... invincible, y'know? So.. yeah. I need to tell you something which is probably going to sound crazy but... I just need to say it."
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
Dragon
Posts: 226
Age:
124
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Ethan Alvarez
Played by:
Emma
For so long I was blind but now I see
Last seen May 7, 2024 0:40:00 GMT
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 7, 2020 2:03:06 GMT
Antonio was used to being alone. He had the girls, of course, but when it came to his love life that had always been one disaster after another and the truth was that he hadn’t tried dating at all since the twins were born. He had thought about it but being a single parent to twin girls made things complicated and he hadn’t wanted to introduce a girlfriend into their lives only for things to end up not working out. The girls were only young when their mom died so they didn’t remember anything about her and Antonio had known that he couldn’t stand to let them get close to a mother figure in their lives only to end up losing her too. It was bad enough knowing all of the things that Samara had already missed out on and all of the things that she was going to miss out on in the future without adding that to the mix as well. Antonio did his best to keep her memory alive but it wasn’t the same and he knew that he couldn’t be the source of any heartache for his girls, he had wanted to protect them from that even if it had meant him being alone. The truth was that his heart had never really been in it anyway. Ever since the Second World War something in him had been different and he had thought that it was just everything that he had seen and done during the war but thanks to Ela he had come to realise that it was more to do with Ethan than anything else and after everything that had happened over the last few days he knew that he didn’t want to waste another minute if he could help it. He knew that chances were his parents would never approve, after all they were not only much older than he was but they had always been very strict as well, but Antonio knew that he deserved to be happy and the only person who made him feel that way aside from the girls was Ethan. Ela had already given her blessing before he had realised that she was right and he hoped that Eli would too. “I still have them in a box in the attic, I didn’t have the heart to throw them away when she outgrew them,” Antonio admitted. It was the same for a lot of things that the girls used to love when they were younger, to him they were treasures more than anything else ever could be. “No wonder you were so full afterwards, I don’t even know how you managed that,” he said, unable to deny that he was impressed. Lifting his slice of pizza to his lips, Antonio took a bite. “Family meals are a must, we always try to have them as much as possible,” he added as he took a swig of his beer to wash it down. They’d been having family meals ever since the girls were little and that wasn’t something that he wanted to change now that they were older. It was still scary to think that they were both teenagers considering that it felt like only yesterday that Samara left them on his doorstep and the truth was that they had grown up so fast but he was still close to both of them and he wanted to keep it that way so family dinners were a good way of making sure that happened. “They are. I’m glad he’s doing better,” he nodded, a smile forming on his face as he looked over at Ethan. Antonio knew that he was going to have to check on the kid himself sooner or later and make sure that he really was doing ok and put his mind at ease but for now he was happy to take Ethan’s word for it. Antonio was surprised when Ethan suddenly said to stop talking and Antonio was about to respond and say that he hadn’t said anything when Ethan started rambling. It was endearing in a way and as he continued Antonio felt his heart start to race a little. He hadn’t been sure until Ethan had put his hand on his leg whether what he felt really was mutual but now he was starting to wonder if perhaps he needn’t have worried after all. As Ethan finished speaking at last, Antonio’s eyes met his. “Ethan, it’s ok. Whatever it is you can tell me,” he assured him, hoping deep down that perhaps Ethan was about to say the words that Antonio hadn’t worked up the courage to say just yet. ETHAN ALVAREZ
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ETHAN ALVAREZ
Phoenix
Posts: 211
Occupation:
Firefighter
Status:
Married
Partner:
Antonio Alvarez
Played by:
Noe
he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
Last seen May 6, 2024 22:05:18 GMT
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 7, 2020 2:35:16 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ I still have them in a box in the attic, I didn’t have the heart to throw them away when she outgrew them, No wonder you were so full afterwards, I don’t even know how you managed that,
Ethan felt a fond smile stretch his lips. "Who knows, maybe in the future, her kid will wear it for her." He said with a soft chuckle following. He recalled how full he felt after that meal and found himself smiling again. "Oh, I didn't even have any room left to breathe, man. It was amazing. My mom used to make it way back, but I'm not gonna lie to you, it tasted like shit. Ela's cooking is way better."
Family meals are a must, we always try to have them as much as possible,
"Okay, then it's settled. I can also help her with it. Though she'll probably need to walk me through every step because I have absolutely zero cooking skills." Ethan said with a chuckle following as he moved his plate to let it rest down beside him on the bed, careful not to let the pizza slice slide onto the covers of the bed or anything like that.
They are. I’m glad he’s doing better, Ethan, it’s ok. Whatever it is you can tell me,
"Me too, man. Me too." Ethan felt a fond smile appear on his lips as he said that. But then he went on to ramble like a highschool student and it made him feel so ridiculous. But when he heard Antonio reassure him that it was okay and that he can tell him whatever it is he wanted to tell him or was trying to tell him, he took a deep breath. "Uh, okay..." Ethan turned to face Antonio a little better, deciding to just bite it. "Look, I.." He wiped his hand on his thigh, surprised to see how clammy it was. He was definitely nervous because what he was about to do could very well ruin their friendship or make things insufferably awkward between them. "I like you. I was originally going to, like, take it slow y'know? But then I almost lost you and everything just clicked into place for me. Why I never settled down... Why I never wanted to date anyone else. Because I've been so damn into you even back then when I knew I couldn't reach out to you. That never changed. It never stopped. I like you, Toni. Way too much, honestly. I'm sorry if this will make things awkward but I just... I just needed you to know. Actually, I think... I'm in love with you. I'm sorry this is so selfish of me but when you were gone, I felt so much regret because I never told you and now that you're here again, I don't want to keep it a secret anymore."
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
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For so long I was blind but now I see
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 7, 2020 12:29:25 GMT
"I hope so," Antonio admitted. He had so many great memories from the girls while they were growing up and he wanted them to have similar memories eventually too. None of them ever knew what the future was going to hold but Antonio had been fortunate enough to end up with the girls in his life after everything that he had been through and he knew that if that was possible then just about anything was. He had never thought about becoming a dad before that but he couldn't deny that being a parent was one of the best things that had ever happened to him and he hoped that one day the girls would get to experience that too so he had made sure to keep a lot of the things that used to be special to them. "You should tell her that, I know she'll be glad to hear it," he said, not a doubt in his mind about that. The thought of Ethan cooking was an amusing one to Antonio given that he seemed to burn most things but for a long time Antonio knew that he hadn't been much better. It was only when the girls came along that he'd had a reason to learn how to cook because he had wanted to make sure they ate well and he had then found that it was actually something that he enjoyed. "I'm sure she would like that," he admitted, knowing that his daughter probably wouldn't pass up the chance to teach him. As talk turned to the boy they had saved, Antonio felt a smile work its way across his face as Ethan agreed with him. He really was glad that the kid was doing okay and he hoped that in time he would be able to put the whole ordeal behind him. The ramble that came next from Ethan was something that Antonio had never expected. He hadn't seen Ethan as nervous about anything since they had fought in the war together but the nerves he was displaying now seemed to surpass the ones from back then. It was cute in a way but right now he wasn't sure what was making Ethan feel that way and he knew that he needed to find out. Finally Ethan started speaking and Antonio felt his heart start to melt. He had hoped that he might hear something like this from Ethan one day but he hadn't thought that it would ever actually happen. Antonio stayed quiet as Ethan spoke, knowing that it was important to let him get it all off his chest, but when he finished Antonio was at a loss for words. All he wanted to do right then was kiss him but Ethan had literally just poured his heart out to him and Antonio knew that he owed it to the guy to be honest with him in return. "I'm glad you decided not to keep it a secret any longer," he said at last as he finally found his voice. "The truth is that I'm in love with you too, I have been since before you died I just never realised it until today. I grew up with my parents drilling the picture of the perfect family with a mom, a dad and kids in my head so that's what I thought my life had to end up like, it never occurred to me that I actually wanted something different," he explained. "While I was stuck in that cave all I could think about was getting back to the girls and to you so if what you said makes you selfish then I guess I'm selfish too," he said, only now tearing his eyes away from Ethan for a moment after they had been fixed on him the whole time so that he could take a sip of his beer to soothe his throat which had now gone dry. "Not long after you moved in Ela told me that she thought we were together and that she was fine with it as long as I was happy, that's what finally made me realise that perhaps the reason why my relationships never worked out is because I have been in love with you all along."ETHAN ALVAREZ
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he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 7, 2020 23:52:37 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ I'm glad you decided not to keep it a secret any longer, The truth is that I'm in love with you too, I have been since before you died I just never realised it until today. I grew up with my parents drilling the picture of the perfect family with a mom, a dad and kids in my head so that's what I thought my life had to end up like, it never occurred to me that I actually wanted something different, While I was stuck in that cave all I could think about was getting back to the girls and to you so if what you said makes you selfish then I guess I'm selfish too,
Ethan was quiet as he looked at Antonio as he spoke, biting down on the flesh of his bottom lip as his words clicked in for him. He was in love with him too? Hearing that made his heart skip a beat as his eyes widened a little, his surprise evident on his face. This confession could've gone wrong in so so many ways but he was so glad it didn't. He was glad it went the way he wished it would. He understood where he was coming from because his parents had been the same, too. For a while, it made you feel wrong if you ever even thought about another guy. Like there was something wrong with the way you were built. That's how Ethan felt at the time, so he buried those feelings deep down.
Not long after you moved in Ela told me that she thought we were together and that she was fine with it as long as I was happy, that's what finally made me realise that perhaps the reason why my relationships never worked out is because I have been in love with you all along.
Ethan felt a smile form on his lips at Antonio's words. The fact that his daughter saw them and thought they were together really did say a lot about how they were like, huh? The stolen glances, the lingering touches. Most of those were from Ethan because he was terrible at hiding his own feelings even when he didn't know what those feelings were.
the reason why my relationships never worked out is because I have been in love with you all along.
That sentence kept repeating in his head over and over again as he looked at Antonio. He had his own troubles with finding a lover because he just couldn't fall in love with them. He really felt nothing for them. But now, he can, with confidence, say that it was all because of Antonio. He was still in love with him. "I..." Ethan was honestly speechless right now. There was so much he wanted to say but nothing was coming out. But there was one request he had in mind. Something he needed to ask Antonio. "Can..." Ethan cleared his throat, his eyes focusing on Antonio's again. "Can I kiss you?"
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ANTONIO ALVAREZ
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Age:
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Firefighter
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Ethan Alvarez
Played by:
Emma
For so long I was blind but now I see
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Post by ANTONIO ALVAREZ on Nov 8, 2020 0:43:02 GMT
Antonio had never been very good at expressing how he felt but Ethan had literally poured his heart out to him so he knew that it was only fair that he did the same in return. For a long time he had been completely oblivious to the way that he felt about Ethan, it was only when Ela told him that she thought they were together that he had started wondering if perhaps there was more to it after all. He had always thought that Ethan was just his best friend, the brother he had found in the midst of battle while they were fighting for their lives, but he was so much more than that and Antonio knew that now. Back in the cave it hadn’t just been the girls that he had wanted to fight to get back to, it had been Ethan as well and now he knew that there could only be one reason for that. He didn’t normally say as much but in that moment he had felt like he needed to let Ethan know everything and Antonio could see the surprise written all over his face but he wasn’t sure if that was a good thing or not. Ethan had been the first to say that he was in love with him but Antonio couldn’t shake the feeling that perhaps his own admission wasn’t what Ethan had been expecting at all. He couldn’t really blame the guy, after all Antonio knew that he would have been just as shocked if he had spoken up first and Ethan had then revealed that he felt the same after all but now that he looked back on the time they had spent together there were so many signs there and he couldn’t believe that he had missed them. Saying all of this was one thing but Antonio had needed Ethan to know that Ela was ok with it. He didn’t know how Eli felt yet as he hadn’t wanted to say anything to her until he knew for sure but he had a feeling that she would be fine with it as well. The girls were the most important people in the world to him and he knew that this wouldn’t happen without their blessing but Ela had already given it and he had seen the way that Eli and Ethan were the day before when he finally made it back home after the cave collapsed so he was pretty sure that she would support them as well. He had always made it clear to the girls that it didn’t matter to him who they loved as long as they were happy and from what he had seen it was the same for them. Ela had apparently seen what was going on between them before the two of them had even realised it themselves so he had a feeling that he was going to have a big “I told you so” coming his way from her when she found out but the truth was that he didn’t mind. At least now it finally made sense why his previous relationships hadn’t worked out anyway and if Antonio was honest he was relieved about that. It had never felt right with anyone before but it did with Ethan without a doubt. Ethan had at least started smiling when Antonio had told him about what Ela had said and that was enough to ease his mind a little. As he tried to speak but couldn’t seem to find the words, Antonio felt a half smile tug at the corner of his mouth. “I think this is the first time I’ve seen you speechless,” he said, needing to say something to break the silence. It really was deafening as he waited for Ethan’s reaction and he hoped that giving him a slight distraction might help a little. Finally Ethan spoke and asked if he could kiss him and Antonio nodded, the smile on his face now full and genuine. “I think you’d better.”ETHAN ALVAREZ
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he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something more than dying.
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Post by ETHAN ALVAREZ on Nov 8, 2020 1:20:25 GMT
━ you're perfection; my only direction. it's fire on fire ━ Ethan chuckled at Antonio's words before he rolled his eyes at him. There had been a few occasions where he found himself going absolutely speechless... Right? He wasn't too sure right now but then again, it was probably because he had all his focus on Antonio right now. The man's confession still ringing in his ears in the best way possible which made the butterflies in his stomach awaken at full force again. In a way, he felt like a teenager all over again with all these emotions rushing through him. But the most prominent emotion was happiness. He was really happy right now. Happy that their relationship wasn't going to face any sort of awkwardness. Happy that Antonio felt the same way about him.
Ethan's eyes remained focused on Antonio's after asking him if he could kiss him. It was something he often thought about or even dreamt about. But he'd always shove those thoughts away from his head because he was his best friend, for God's sake. He can't be having those thoughts about him. But now that their feelings were out in the open, he felt like he could be more honest about it. Felt like he could welcome those thoughts back in without feeling ashamed about it.
Ethan felt a small smile appear on his lips at Antonio's words as he nodded his head slowly. He ran his tongue across his bottom lip out of a nervous habit. He was worrying too much about doing this right. About not making this feel like an awkward high schooler kiss but he decided to throw all those thoughts out of the window and just slowly leaned forward, closing the distance between the two of them. The less distance there was, the more nervous he got but he didn't lean back. His heart was pounding in his chest but it could also be from excitement. All his emotions were pretty much a tangled mess right now but he still wanted to do this. Still wanted to kiss Antonio. He lifted his hand slowly to let it rest on Antonio's cheek as he tilted his own head slightly to the side and finally closed that suffocating little distance between their lips and kissed him properly. The first contact between their lips was more than enough to tear a soft gasp from Ethan. His heart jumped at the contact, too. But it felt right. It felt so right to be able to kiss him like this. It was everything he needed and more in that moment. He leaned away shortly after, not wanting to overwhelm the other. There was a gentle smile on his lips when he leaned back, though. "You okay?"
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